No way!

     This year is almost over. Six months have flown by. I started a new years resolution late this year. Who said you needed it to start in january?I started a life change. Excersise and nutrition.
     Things have been slow but I'm getting results. I do not want to be skinny. I want to be healthy.
During my moms illness and death I started to think of me. I dont want to suffer what mom suffered. If I have too fine. But if I can help my body why not. This fourth of july I did my first 5K. My trainer always pushes us to do them. I have not signed up. This time I did. When I signed I was like wth am I doing.
     I started training. Walking every day. I did ok. Then I went on the track. I stopped because my feet began to hurt. I am not using the right shoes. I was not able to walk for about 2 days. Then this weekend I went on a little trip. I lost time. Tuesday before the race I couldn't sleep. Woke up early. Had toast and headed to the track.
     When I got there, there were so many people. My group was there and we took pictures. It was fun. I was so nervouse. I wanted to just go home. Then the race began. I felt like cattle sent to the slaughter. people passed me by. I keept my pace. My mind was like "what are you doing?" " I'm tired" "lets go home" " did that grama just pass me?" Then dad would say "you can do it."  "breath"Dad had joined to walk by my side. He was my shadow. I love that man. Then after the two mile mark I saw my friends come for me. Cheering me on. Happy I was there. I kept going. Then the hill started. They pushed me on. There was a 92 year old by me. We pushed each other.
Then the finish line. I was there. Of course it was a bit empty because I was the last one. Then out of the blue Josiah is the only one on the street running toward me. I lost it. I cried like a baby. Tears were non stop. I made it. I crossed it. My friends were hugging me. My trainer. My dad. My sisters. Strangers. So overwhelming. My moms presence was felt. It was so emotional.
I am so thankful for all and who I have in my life. The Lord knows who each of us need. I am thankful for this experience. It is true when they say "you set your own limitations".