Me time

Ever since I can remember I have been taking care of other people. My parents, my brothers, and now my nephews and nieces. It really isn't very hard. I do love them and want them to be taken care of. During the process I haven't taken care of myself.

Not that I mind really. I am the best for the job. I always make them first. Then if there is time or energy I take care of my needs and wants. Since my mother passed away I have been thinking a lot. About her, me, my future. At work they started a weight loss challenge for a few weeks. I decided to join. First week I gained 4 pounds. Second week I gained 5 pounds. Clearly I want to pay into the money pot and I am playing against the rules. I didn't notice that all the stress from mothers passing away was eating at me. I was going at it all wrong. I was just thinking one day and moms voice came clear as day. It's your turn. then an email came from a friend who is a trainer. She opened up her facility and wanted me to join. I ignored it for about a day. I keept going to the same thought. As usual alma said it is time. If you have it in your mind for this long. Do it!

I emailed amber and she was so informative and said to trust her. I would be ok. That is exactly what I am doing. I trust her. I know she has tried and tested this. She has gone to school for this. Now it my turn to take care of me. I know I will not be a model. Just healthy. That is what I want. My family has been so supportive. I feel so alive. Sick, but alive.

I may not win the money pot at work but it does not matter. Most of the workers will lose the weight for the money then gain it back up. Yo yo. want to be healthy. And not to mention I moved up 2 spots since I started boot camp! Whoop whoop. just this week alone I lost 3 lbs! Not much to you but to me its a celebration!

My goal:100lbs in 8mo