After mother died things have been different around here. Mother ran the house. She guided us and we listened. We have our moments here and there. Things that reminds us of her. Songs she used to like. She pops up on all our conversations. We make due. Dad on the other hand is taking it hard.
He is constantly thinking of her. Talking about her. Telling us stories about them. Really cute. During mom last week dad got a tiny bump on his neck. After so many doctors visit we finally got the confirmation. Dad has type 1 cancer in his neck. This news hit us hard. Dad on the other hand is liking the idea that he and mom might end up together sooner than later.
I have to admit I cried all the way home. I know it is curable but to know that I may lose my father as well made me sick. I believe In the plan but so soon? Dad will be in chemo and he will deff be ill. One more parent to see sick. To see their pain. To feel terrible they are putting their children go thru this. He already said to put him in a home. He has to stop kidding like that.
Now its time to pray. To love home more than ever. To make him want to love life for the younger one of my siblings. The youngest ones don't know until chemo begins. Why stress them more than they have to. I can't complain, I won't complain. There is no room. My prayers are for him to stand the pain and let Him choose what is best for dad.
Funny how mom is gone because she would have died seeing dad go thru this. Prayers are welcome.
"This too shall pass"
Lily Gets Her Camp Name
12 years ago
I suppose it is good you have a good relationship with your dad. When my mom found out she had cancer, she cried, bc she knew she was going to die sooner than later and she knew it was bc my dad had to step up and do the job he hadn't been doing all those years (that being, dad). The relationship between him & us (his kids) is still pretty strained. :P
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